mainan perasaan

Pagi ini tanpa saya pinta ada satu bayangan yang muncul di depan mata saya. Bayangan kemesraan yang meresahkan hati saya pagi-pagi ini dan seterusnya membangkitkan satu rasa kerinduan yang teramat sangat. Harap-harap ianya tidak akan lama mengganggu....

i love you more than you love me

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But when I think of you
I long to feel your touch

To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine

I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should've made my move when you looked in my eyes
'cause by now I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

So today, I finally find the courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move when I finally get to it
Just like a thousand times before

Then without a word he handed me this letter
Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

Well maybe i, I need a little love yeah
And maybe i, I need a little care
And maybe i, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you
Oh you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out and I'll be there

I love you, please say
You love me too
Please say you love me too
Till the end of time
These three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together

Oh, I love you
Please say you love me too
Please please

Say you love me too
Till the end of time
My baby
Together, together, forever
Till the end of time
I love you
I will be your light
Shining bright
Shining through your eyes
My baby

Everything I do, I do it for you

Look into my eyes you will see,
What you mean to me.
Search your heart, search your soul,
And when you find me there,
You'll search no more.

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for.
You know it's true.
Everything I do, I do it for you.

Look into your heart, you will find,
There's nothin' there to hide.
Take me as I am. Take my life.
I would give it all.
I would sacrifice.

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for.
I can't help it, there's nothin' I want more.
You know it's true.
Everything I do, I do it for you.

Oh, yeah.

((There's no love like your love.))
((And no other could give more love.))
((There's nowhere, unless you're there.))
((All the time, all the way.))
Yay.

Look into your heart, baby.

Oh, you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.
I can't help it, there's nothin' I want more.
((Yeah, I would fight for you, I'd lie for you.))
((Walk the wire for you,))
Yeah, I'd die for you.

You know it's true.
Everything I do, oh-oh-oh-oh,
I do it for you.

hurts

what hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though

Goin' on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And havin' so much to say

(Much to say)

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was tryin' to do, oh

Oh yeah

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to say

(To say)

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you

That's what I was trying to do, ooo

Don't hurt anyone

EVERYTHING

HAPPENS 

FOR A REASON

Relationships are like crystals,

u don't realize how much u love it

until it breaks

pengabadian kasih....ku

Entah mengapa sejak saya berpindah ke tempat kerja lama, hari-hari yang saya lalui semakin tidak ceria. Hari-hari ada sahaja benda yang saya temui yang boleh mengganggu gugat ketenangan hati saya. Tekanan kerja semakin berkurangan, walaupun ada lagi suara-suara sumbang yang saya dengar, menyalahkan itu dan ini, tetapi pada saya apa yang dia diperkatakan sekadar cakap-cakap kosong dan tiada bukti. Terima kasih pada orang berkenaan kerana memberi saya pahala percuma.... 

Semalam, sekali lagi hati saya terusik. Memang benar kenyataan sangat menyakitkan, dan itulah yang saya rasa semalam. Air mata saya gugur sekali lagi, walaupun ditahan. Sepanjang perjalanan pulang kerumah, rasa sebak saya tahan sehingga saya tidak mampu untuk mengukir senyuman, walaupun ada benda yang kelakar di radio, saya hanyut dengan perasaan sedih tadi. Perjalanan pulang semalam juga sangat-sangat mudah kerana tiada jem langsung, saya meluncur laju menuju ke rumah. Fikiran saya benar-benar terganggu semalam. 

Izhan berjalan berseorangan, dia ke tempat yang biasa dia dan Adrina menghabiskan masa, di Jusco.. Sampai sahaja di perkarangan tempat meletak kereta, Izhan melihat tempat parking kereta yang biasanya Adrina meletakkan keretanya. Hatinya tersentuh. Dia terus mencari tempat parking lain agar dia tidak terus teringat benda-benda yang lepas. Namun setibanya di dalam, sekali lagi dia terpandang kerusi tempat biasa Adrina menunggunya.  'tempat ini benar-benar penuh dengan kenanganku dengan Adrina' bisik Izhan dalam hatinya. Izhan tidak berdaya untuk mengelak darinya dari terus mengingati Adrina, segenap ruang Jusco ini penuh dengan kenangannya. Izhan membiarkannya....

Setiap langkahnya didalam pusat membeli belah itu, Adrina mengekorinya, terpandang setiap perlakuan Adrina, segala-galanya. Izhan mencari tempat untuk duduk sebentar, dia menarik nafas yang panjang dan dilepaskannya perlahan-lahan. Matanya dipejam, sekali lagi dia terpandang Adrina. Izhan membuka matanya, dia tersenyum sendiri. Begitu besar cintanya pada Adrina, dia sendiri tidak menyangkanya. 'Apa khabar agaknya Adrina ku', 'harap dia bahagia sekarang dengan orang yang disayanginya' bisik Izhan lagi. 

Izhan bangun dan dalam hatinya berbisik... 'Pengabadian kasihku berakhir disini'......... Terima kasih atas segalanya sayang.....

love & .......